But what I wanted to say is this: After the period of melancholy is over you will be stronger than before, you will recover your health, & you will find the scenery round you so beautiful that you will want nothing but paint.
― Vincent van Gogh  (via wheatfieldwithcrowsabove)

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Anonymous: Do you still weigh yourself? How much do you weigh?

No, I don’t. I haven’t in at least a year and even then it wasn’t a regular thing. I don’t care so why do you?

Anonymous: Hey Sian, I thought I might ask you this because I am having a lot of difficulty right now, but I hope it doesn't piss you because people often solicit advice from you. Being weight-restored after a really bad relapse last year, I am finally at the point where I just want to move beyond it all, but I have no idea how to mentally move past this self-loathing. Do you have any advice for practical things I can do to push past the mental barriers?

I think I’ve proved, time and time again, what shit advice I dish out so I’m sorry in advance. Also, questions like this don’t piss me off. I’m just terrified that my advice will be useless - which it nearly always is.
I admire your desire to want to put the past behind you. It’s very easy to dwell on it and let it consume you. I think you should try and focus on things that your ED took from you, if you get me? It you had talents that you postponed or gave up you should try re-immersing yourself in them again. If you had relationships that suffered because of your disorder, you could try rebuilding them again. Do whatever the hell made you happy pre-ED. Claim back the life you once had.
Hopefully this is somewhat useful x

(Reading this back and realising that it’s not at all helpful, I’m sorry)

Don’t compare your Chapter 1 to someone else’s Chapter 20.
You don’t have to justify your body.


If you’re thin, you don’t have to say ‘but I eat all the time!’/’I have a fast metabolism!’

If you’re fat, you don’t have to say ‘it’s genetic!’/’I’m trying to lose weight!’

You don’t need to explain to anybody why your body is the way it is. Your body is YOUR body, and that’s all the justification you need.


there is no life in an eating disorder

you may think you’re living a decent life but you are not truly living when you are being consumed by your own thoughts

there is so much more out there for you

life begins when the healing begins

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